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    Hello! My name is Laura, welcome to my blog! I write weird stories, collect dragon plushies and stay up too late with my nose in a book. I am a wife, mom and child saved by grace. My hope is that you find encouragement here or at least a smile or too.
    God bless!

  • “Now go, write it before them in a table, and note it in a book that it may be for the time to come forever and ever.”
    ~Isaiah 30:8.

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    We have come from God, and inevitably the myths woven by us, though they contain error, will also reflect a splintered fragment of the true light, the eternal truth that is with God. Indeed only by myth-making, only by becoming 'sub-creator' and inventing stories, can Man aspire to the state of perfection that he knew before the Fall. Our myths may be misguided, but they steer however shakily towards the true harbour, while materialistic 'progress' leads only to a yawning abyss and the Iron Crown of the power of evil.
    ~J.R.R. Tolkien

    "The only just literary critic," he concluded, "is Christ, who admires more than does any man the gifts He Himself has bestowed."
    ~J.R.R. Tolkien

    “Fantasy is escapist, and that is its glory. If a soldier is imprisioned by the enemy, don't we consider it his duty to escape?. . .If we value the freedom of mind and soul, if we're partisans of liberty, then it's our plain duty to escape, and to take as many people with us as we can!”
    ~J.R.R. Tolkien

    "Writers who see by the light of their Christian faith will have, in these times, the sharpest eye for the grotesque, for the perverse, and for the unacceptable. To the hard of hearing you shout, and for the almost-blind you draw large and startling figures."
    ~Flannery O'Connor

    You write to communicate to the hearts and minds of others what’s burning inside you. And we edit to let the fire show through the smoke.
    ~Arthur Polotnik

    Words - so innocent and powerless as they are, as standing in a dictionary, how potent for good and evil they become in the hands of one who knows how to combine them.
    ~Nathaniel Hawthorne

    "There are forms of insanity that condemn people to hear voices against their will, but as writers we invite ourselves to hear voices without relinquishing our hold on reality or our right to control."
    ~Writing Fiction by Janet Burroway

    Christians have sometimes been suspicious of stories, because they really can influence you. If you read the Twilight novels once a month for a year, I think you'd be a different human afterward—and not a sparkly one.
    ~Nate Wilson

Nothing to Fear

I paced back and forth in my room, kneading my sweaty hands together.  The four walls of the small bedroom seemed to close in on me.  I casted a helpless glance out the window.  Fear ate at my mind, overflowing and running over as tears down my cheeks.  Fear of failing, again.  Shouldn’t I just take my past failure as a hint?  Just let it go, give up, I could always try again in the very far future, why put myself through that again so soon. 

God?  Are You there?  What happened?  You were suppose to help me.  Where were you?

“…they that know thy name will put their trust in thee: for thou, LORD, has not forsaken them that seek thee.” Psalm 9:10

I sank to the floor.  What did I do wrong?  I thought I did my best.    

“Be still and know that I am God…” Psalms 46:11

Father, I don’t understand, I thought the path was clear, I thought it was all going to work out right then.  What happened?  What are You doing?

“For thou, O God, hast proved us: thou tried us, as silver is tried.” Psalms 66:10

“…but we glory in tribulations also; knowing that tribulation worketh patience; and patience, experience; and experience, hope: and hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearst by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us.” Romans 5: 3-5

I’m still afraid.  I have to go into the fire again.  I have to face it, and I am afraid.

“Be of good courage, and he shall strengthen your heart, all ye that hope in the LORD.” Psalms 31:24

“I sought the LORD, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears.” Psalms 34:4

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I’m going to come right out and say it, I’m a wimp; I constantly let my fears get the better of me and influence my decisions.     In the past few weeks God has been calling me on my fears.   Remember that placement test I said I was studying for?  Well, I had already taken it once and didn’t get the scores I needed.  I was trying to get into ENG101 or 102 and I didn’t get into either.  I was completely crushed.  I had prayed about it over and over again and I truly believed I was going to pass into the class I wanted.  But God had other plans.  Instead of giving me the victory I thought was already in the bag, He decided to test me.  I went from cloud nine to stuck in a deep dark pit. I was hurt, confused, what was God doing? 

After that incident I suddenly found myself ready to give up.  I had failed, I wasn’t going to get into the winter quarter after all.  Fear of failing again stripped me of the smallest crumb of courage and left me to wallow in shame. 

Finally, I wake up to the fact that perhaps there was more to this then simply not scoring higher on a placement test.  What was God trying to teach me?  Going before God on my knees I brought Him my fears.  He stripped them apart layer by layer until their roots where revealed.   And suddenly, those roots staring at me, I realized they were nothing – paper thin and meaningless. 

A phrase began to repeat itself in my mind, “God is leading my path and in control of my life; I have nothing to fear.  God is leading my path and in control of my life; I have nothing to fear.”

Whenever I felt the familiar tension and fear creeping up on me, I would repeat that line over and over again, adding to it and lifting it up to my Heavenly Father.  Then I buckled down and studied. 

This past Monday I went back to the community college and took the placement test again.   Every few minutes I prayed, giving the test and the outcome to God, promising that no matter what happened, I would accept it as part of His perfect plan, praise Him for it and move on.  Guess what happened?  I pasted into ENG101!   I was overjoyed!  God had brought me through my fears and was faithful to fulfill His promises.

Now, when the next test of my fears comes around, I will act in faith and hand them over to God, for real.  I will wait on the Lord and rest in His caring and capable hands and remember; I have nothing to fear.     

“Say to them that are of a fearful heart; Be strong, fear not: behold, your God will come with vengeance, even God with a recompense; he will come and save you.”  Isaiah 35:4  

God bless.

~Laura

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